What You want from others is what You must give to yourself. Example; You want people to Respect You. The lesson here is for You to Respect You not getting it from others.
It is that simple or You can go through the Pain and Suffering to arrive at this same Understanding, your choice.
To your "Light" being Vulnerable is Following the Unknown, relinquishing your Control and pursuing your passion. We all will do exactly that at some point on our Path.
Best not to resist when the Time comes for You to be Vulnerable, look for the signs sometimes they are obvious sometimes not.
If You have placed Limitations on what You can Enjoy in Life it's time to Expand your Enjoyment to include All. Enjoyment is not to be limited it is to be contagious.
Each Tyrant in the past has shown what Anyone Can Become or is Capable of If their Negative Mindset goes Uncorrected when given Power and/or Wealth over others.
The same is true even without power or wealth, this Negative energy can do the unthinkable at any level when it takes control.
The Solutions that Used to work will No Longer. You must Look for another Solution for your situations going forward, one will be presented that will be very different from your usual choice.
Being Calm, Opened to and Awareness is the Key here.
One who Shows or Tells You what Negative part of You that needs to be Changed is Far more Valuable than those that Tell You what You want to Hear or Says Nothing.
Choose wisely on which one You want to Embrace on your Path.